Summer Fling

I finally understand what a summer fling is. This summer, and not too long ago, I met this guy. He is a musician. You know how I hate that people just come and go in my life all the time and including this time.

I remember how people often tell me, when you least expected, you'll meet someone special, someone that you'll never thought that you'll ever know. And this is exactly how this guy let me feel. Again, it is just so depressing that the whole timing is wrong, and also another wrong person.

How would I describe this guy? I shall say, he is a city boy from the west coast, not the typical midwesterner I have met around here, which make it better because I am a very typical city girl and a very open-minded girl. However, I was surprised by the impression and the feeling I have and it was way beyond I have expected. He plays in a band and that makes him not able to settle his feet in a place but just a very minimal period of time. I can only say that he is a very unique person, out of my expectation.

It was one day, I was sitting in Starbucks, rearranging the piano sheets I had just printed out. I thought it was just a coincidence event for the reason he is a musician and I am considering a pianist (me as pianist just because I learned piano, not by occupational). He came up to me and started to get to know each other from the basic step. Right before he left, he invited me to watch his band playing live in a bar which started at 6pm. Honestly, I wasn't even thinking of going, but my feet just stopped right on the street where the bar was when I was on the way home from Starbucks. Hence, I entered...

It really has been awhile since I last update my blog. Well, I just lazy and don't feel like spending time on this anymore. I have been thinking of removing my blog at the same time.

Well, I'm on my summer break, nothing really happening thought. Now to recall, I have changed pretty much from last year compare to now. A lot of things are just different and the way I thought and what I like. I can say it's a major change.

Remember how much I said I hated living in the States? Right now, I just love being in the States. I just realize how many friends I have and how much fun I have. Each day I'm meeting new people and I just enjoy everything.

Also, I often tell people how much I dislike rock music. Right now, I've changed. I'm into certain rock music, and getting back on my classic guitar again. I have always enjoy music, just a little change in the taste. :)

As for this summer break, I just need some time to settle myself. I just need to be stable and find out what kinda person I am now. I think I really know what to do and where my goal is. I just need more effort to work on these.

I love being single at the moment. I think I have a particular guy that I like currently. He can make my day by just talking to me. Whether he and I gonna work out or not, I just enjoy the moment we have. :)

Am I a happy person now? Perhaps I am compare to the person I was last year. :)

Help Me in a Survey Please... :)

I'm having a management class which I need 10-15 full time employees to work on a survey for me by next week.

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At the end fo the survey, remember to put my name, Jun Wei Foong. I do appreciate a lot if anyone of you do help me.

Thank you. :)

I am participating in a research project as part of a management class I am currently taking at UNL. Part of this project is to ask full-time working adults we know to complete a brief online survey. I hope you will consider participating. The survey is in two parts. Each part takes approximately 15-20 minutes to complete, and will ask a variety of questions about your work experiences, health, and relationships. If you complete both portions of the survey, they will send you a personalized report and analysis of your results.

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All your responses will be anonymous, and your thoughtful responses will be very helpful. We will be learning from the overall results of this survey in a later class session.

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UNL's Malaysian Night 2009 + After Party

Last Saturday was my school's Malaysian night. I perform last year but this year I decided not to and frankly, many of us anti-NUMSA, the Malaysian Society. I really dislike them.

Also, I think last year's Malaysian Night was better and more interesting. The dances this year were kinda dull. I prefer the Chinese dance I did last year.

This was actually my first time being an audience attending some cultural night. I never attend any of the Chinese Night, Japan Night, and etc etc...

I totally love my dress a lot!!

Tanisha and I

Whitney from Taiwan but is adopted by American family and I

Josh from Singapore and I

Heng Yik previously from the college with me and I

Yon Soon, Vince and I, the Malaysians.

Alex from Malaysia and Luna from China

Wenjia, no idea who's that weird guy is but I think he lives in my dorm, me, Jieling, and Luna.
standing among these girls, can tell that I'm really tanned. :(

Eng Hong, me and Alex

Me and Pakol from Hong Kong

Yume from Japan, Tanisha and I.
Aw... I love this picture.

Stinky Sister and I :P

Me and Cissy from China.

Ling Yit the Iban :D

Me and Vanessa from Hong Kong

Richard and I

Forgot-his-name from China and Andy from Taiwan

We are both Jennas!! :D

Hiroi from Japan and I

Almas, Yu Rong both from China and I

After Malaysian Night, we had an after party at the some Malaysian's house where we always party at.

beer pong, an American drinking game. :)

hookah

Well, I didn't drink very much that night and just stay for a little while. But it was a great night hanging out with different people. :)

You've Got a Package!

I believe most people got addicted once they are starting to dye their hair and just like me, I got my hair dyed yesterday night. Max helped me actually. :)

I kinda love it actually. While coloring it, I was still afraid that my hair will go blonde but thank goodness, it turns out just nice.

Just got back from the bars not too long ago and I went to check my mail box. I was excited to see that there was a slip notifying me that I've got a package. Immediately I went to Neihardt front desk to collect it and it was the package from GUESS?. I order a top and a jeans and I totally love them cuz they are so cute!!


Especially the back of the top is corset and I like the sparking crystal on the pockets of the straight cut jeans. :)

Another Day Again, I gotta Stop!

I went to shop again today.

This time was intended to buy some heels and dress. Hence I bought 4 pairs of heels and two formal dresses. I guess this will be my last shopping spree, can't shop too much, really have to concentrate on studies now.

Two pairs of satin pumps from NINA, one pair from Jessica Simpson, and a pair of evening sandals from Gianni Bini. I totally love NINA and Gianni Bini because they were so comfortable but I haven't tired Jessica Simpson before.

Actually NINA's shoes are mainly made for bridal event but I got attracted by their sexy and gorgeous design.

Ever since I came to the States, I never really wear any heels to classes anymore. So that's why I have tons of boots and since here is cold most of the time anyway. Always wanted to get some heels but never find any occasion to wear them.

Then I got this long navy evening gown. I actually need one formal dress for Malaysian Night this Saturday. Wasn't planning to attend but since everyone is going so I decided that I should go to and was being persuaded actually. :P


Sorry, the lighting is bad. I couldn't turn on the flash in front of the mirror. I like this white short tube dress. I really can't make up my mind which one to wear. Maybe I'll ask my friend to pick for me. :)


And!! I got a new phone few weeks ago, a BlackBerry Storm. I totally love it! :D

I can actually check my email, facebook, instant messages (the one I have it on right now is Google Talk), ... anytime I want as it has internet access 24/7. It actually has almost the same feature as an iPhone. I can't get iPhone myself because I'm not an AT&T customer but Verizon Wireless.

New Updates in Jan 09 - Fen 09

Many people have been telling me that I haven't been updating my blog for a long time. I kinda left it idle since previously my life has been a total mess. I apologize here. :)

The end of February is here and many things had happened in between such as the big day Valentine's Day. Also, there have been some parties going on but I didn't really take much pictures. Oh right there is another point, I haven't been taking a lot of pictures!!! Anyhow, most of my pictures are always being update first on my Facebook. Well, see if you can find me. Unfortunately, my Facebook profile is only access to friends.

this was taken in the begining of January when my bang was still nice and perfect. :)

me and one of my bestfriends, Halley.

Halley, Stephanies, Abby and Chanel over Nathan's house.

Jon, Nathan, Viet Dinh, David.

Here come the Valentine's day picture. I didn't really has a date just hanging with my bestfriends. For what I have been through, my friends have always been there for me. I would say, I totally love them!! :)

On Valentine's day, we were bar hopping. We kinda drank way too much. Then we head to a party at some apartment at downtown. There were a lot of familiar people at the same time I got to know some new people. Frankly, I love my life now. I'm happy that I have people that still concern about me.

Tanisha and I

Sister Taylor and his bestfriend, Josh.

Josh, me, and Giacomo.

Josh and I

me and my favourite sister. :D

I kinda skipped school for an entire week at LaVista. Well, I'm not going in detail for what I have been doing there as Sis and Josh has been asking me all the time. :P

On weekend, Tanisha and I went to shopping and for pedicure. I have been doing a lot of shopping. Got tons of dresses, boots, tops, shorts, jeans, and a new diamond necklace in these two months. I may be well pampered but these are my therapy. Lol.

Few weeks ago, my cbox was continuously spammed by weird people from a porn blog, that's why I have my cbox removed. Some one put up a link to my blog saying that nude girl is me. That girl may have some features that look like me, but she looks more like a Japanese and first of all, I don't take nude pictures. Please look carefully before spamming my blog!!!

當時喜歡Taylor Swift的Love Story
我心情是很高興的

2009年是一個好的開始嗎？

原本是這麽認爲
可是事實上好像沒有這回事
只是一個假相……

Frankly, I don't know how to describe how happy I am now.

I think I have found something that I have been searching for ages.

But still, there is fear......

Since the break up it has only been 2 weeks and it is not understandable how I change this fast. Or may be what he did make me awake from the world of love and blindness?

I admit that I was blindfolded to see the true him. Therefore, I'm more careful this time.

I did have a good weekend. I hope this is what I really want...

I'm Moving On!

There is nothing more but I can't describe how happy I am today! After the whole break up thing, surprisingly it doesn't affect me much. In fact, I am moving on. :)

I'm so excited!!! Never felt this way before for a long time. Perhaps I haven't been staying as single for a long while.

Recently, I have been meeting some nice people. I should have hang out more often with friends. I finally realize that I have more friends that I thought. I shouldn't have just stick to my ex all the time.

My friends are really great people. They are there for me whenever I'm down. I actually feel that they care for me. :)

Last night, Halley treated me authentic Japanese food here in Lincoln, NE. We went to Wasabi. I like the ambiance, it's romantic! We ordered Sashimi. Gosh, it was so good!!! At first I dare not try cuz I'm afraid that the fist are not fresh. But it turn out unexpectedly good, especially that squid salad. I totally love it!!

It's finally over for real this time

Dustin and I am no longer together after what happened yesterday. In my life, I haven't met such situation before.

How I feel right now is bad. At the same time I am alright. Bad is because my own reputation and dignity have been disgraced. I am alright because I still think that Dustin is so selfish, inconsiderate and I really think there is no point for me to work hard for this relationship again.

I still love him of course, just not that I should be with him anymore. I'll just let my love fade with time. I am not like him, my love last forever. My love don't just disappear the next day when something bad happen. I would at least try to understand, and after all he is still the person that I love. I would give him my forgiveness and not turning him away...

What happened yesterday was we were arguing, as usual, we always do over little things. At the moment, I was not sober. You know how alcohol amplifies one's emotion. I was upset over what Dustin something said to me at Walmart.

That night, I tried leaving the apartment. I thought he would tell me not to go... but he didn't. That broke my heart. I turned back and stayed. The next morning when he woke up, he just wanted me to go right away. My heart broke twice. How do you feel when someone that you love actually asking you to disappear? I wish that he would show that he wanted me to stay. I wish that he would show affection. I wish he would show that he needed me. Obviously, he doesn't.

I got mad. I threw things all around because I was so upset. I didn't mean to hurt him. I just wanted his phone because he called the cops to take me away. Who doesn't scare of the cops? I believe Dustin scares of the cops too. I had no choice but making him looked like a rapist. The whole residents heard us but still the cops took me away just because I wasn't the one that made the call and I wasn't sober. And may be because I'm an Asian who came far away from home.

When I asked him how could he do this to me. He said he wouldn't want his hard earn life to be ruined. How could he say things like that? What about me? Does he ever think that this could probably ruin my future? How could he be so selfish? How could he only think about himself? How could he actually see me taking away by the cops and stood there do nothing? This is totally embarrassed. I regret now... I should have let him go earlier if I know this would happen even that I still love him.

I am disappointed. I finally realize that our relationship has lost its base. The relationship is no longer strong anymore. I will appreciate the memories and erase what I don't need to keep. I believe one day I will forget about this guy for how he repay me.

I treated this relationship with love and care. I actually carefully treated him and helped him through with all the problems. One thing that I didn't get is, he has never been there for me when I need him. For this he would probably say because I didn't let him know that I was upset so I gotta blame myself.

The meaning of a relationship, perhaps he hasn't seen what he should see, learn what he should learn. I hope one day he would appreciate me. I know I could have hated him but I'm always kind and ready to forgive and believe.

I'm glad that I'm finally letting it go. I think I should celebrate my new start in life. Chinese New is around the corner, it could be a sign that I'm gonna have a brand new life. Without him now, I have more time to study...

Also, if this relationship did go on, today is the 1st anniversary. Unfortunately, this is what God responded to me. There will be someone better for me.

Good memories stay...but life still go on...

End of the story for these two people...

以前的回憶

老實説
最近身邊來來去去的人
或是腦子裏的人
都好像跟過去有關
真的不明白
爲什麽這種感覺會回來呢？
會有這樣的巧合嗎？
而且自從回家以後
以前從不來往的朋友
也終于在聯絡了
或是不常聯絡的
也變得常常聯絡了
只是有些事情已經想不起來了
因爲我把不愉快的都給忘了

生命的主角

在現實生活中自己是主角
一個人的生活是一出戯
導演是上帝
我在想…
身邊的配角可以自己選嗎？
相信每個人心中也一定會有個主角
常常人會幻想說心中的主角會是扮演什麽樣的角色
而對我這主角來説
我卻覺得上帝喜歡任意換配角
祂最近把以前的配角給請回來了
我覺得生活好像在繞圈圈

The Most Exhausted Journey Ever

I was supposed to be leaving the States on the 21st December 2008 and got to reach home before Christmas. I always love Christmas with the carols. Unfortunately, my flights got delayed with numerous reasons.

My first flight from Lincoln to Denver was delayed because the aircraft came from Chicago and as you know that weather on the east is pretty bad because of snowing. When I reached Denver, we waited in the aircraft from entirely half an hour. I was pissed that my time was running out. I did have sufficient time to catch my next flight to LA.

Oh well, of course nobody cares whether you miss your flight or what because everybody was missing their flights!! The customer service for United Airline was bad!! They were ignorant, not being understanding, and most importantly that they are rude!! I have even tried to call, but no one actually bother to pick up their phone.

I was scheduled for the next flight at 6.48pm to LA on 21st December. However, I was put to standby. And yeah, the best thing United Airline ever did is that they DOWNSIZE the aircraft at the very last minute!!! GOD DAMN IT!! Do you ever think that they actually put the customers first when there is about 20 people couldn't get onto the flight? And most of them weren't being put to standby!!

I stayed in Denver for a night, they provided me accommodation which was the only good thing they ever did. I flew back to Nebraska the next day and was about to give up hope to come home. But I still wanted to try. Finally, the customer service in Omaha was friendly, she was a very patient representative who helped me to reissue a new ticket for me to go home.

Oh well, another story here.

Ok, my new routing. I flew to Chicago on the next day. Everything went well. I was happy at the moment. I wasn't sure if God was playing game with me or what. When I got onto the aircraft in Chicago and was about to fly to Frankfurt in Germany. Suddenly the crew announced that the aircraft was facing some sort of mechanical problem. Yeah, and got delayed for two hours!!

I was pissed pisSED PISSED!!!! I knew when I reached to Frankfurt I'm not able to catch my next flight to KL. I waited for another 12 hours for the next flight home.

With my experience, DON'T EVER THINK OF TAKING UNITED AIRLINE EVER EVER EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!! Fuck United Airline.

Sorry for my cursing. I'm not a person who has cursing habit and I've been a very patient person. But you wouldn't want to ask me to tolerate United Airline.

Just a Quick Post of My life :P

I haven't been updating about my life for a long long long time. And gosh, I haven't even post the pictures for Halloween and it's like two months ago!!!!

Oh well, I hope I'll be posting more after this week when I'm home in MALAYSIA!!!! :D

Ooh hoooo!! I'm super excited!!!!!!

Since Thanksgiving break I've been partying at my friends' house and right there we had taken numerous pictures too... Also, everyone was so trashed and the pictures are so uncivilized.... :S

Nothing much about the past week, watched When the Earth Stood Still. The movie is okay... Expected more from it because the beginning was exciting. Also, I attended some Japanese graduation party, kinda boring and the air is humid, so I left the party early.

And, this week is the final exam week!! I just got one done!!!! Two more to go. :)

I need shopping so desperately!!! My family are back in Taiwan... I wish I could go with them. T_T

But thanks to Mom that she still bought me things that I want. Can't wait to see what she got me.

Dustin and I haven't been taking any pictures lately so I figure to take some. This picture is probably my favourite one cuz he look so funny!!! I took it when he's playing xbox live.

Finally both of us decided to give another chance to maintain this relationship. It's gonna be tough though...

I hope we could last as long as we can... :)

Christmas has always been my favourite festival throughout the whole year. But recently, breaking up with boyfriend has been a hard time for me.

I was supposed to be looking forward to and I thought we were gonna make some snowmen before I'm going back to Malaysia. I thought we were still gonna exchange some presents. I thought there were still so many things await for us.

But... It was so sudden and unexpected. I know I was thinking of breaking up but that time I was too stressful with exams and homework. When I was back to my usual life, he has changed. Not the same person who was always being close to me. I feel scared and disappointed...

Right now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I just feel so empty. He said he needs time. But, does time ever bring him back? The possibility is small...

But... do you ever believe in true love? Somebody told me that true love will come back to you no matter what because it is fate. I guess I will have to look it this way, if he is my true love, he'll be back. If not I'll face the fact.

I hate relationship. I always have broken relationships. For once you feel like you're a princess, the next minute you're just a Cinderella.

Boyfriend has always be the first person in my world and he always take the biggest part in my life. Right now... I just feel empty....... Hoping this is just a barrier to cross for a better relationship. Or maybe to say it this way, I hope this is just a test for us to build a stronger relationship.

However, how could a man fall in love again with the same woman that he used to love??? One big question is, how could possibly that he doesn't love me anymore???

一月十九號二零零八年開始
今天十二月八號結束
是有點難過也捨不得
可是這是當初是我做的決定
只是這次不是我的
應該面對現實吧
不應該有任何的期望

我在想……

是不是每一個男生都會劈腿？


還有，我在想……

男生劈腿的幾率有多少？


對我來説
我最痛恨劈腿了
這只會把愛變成恨

說真的
一直以來 男朋友這件事多我來説很困擾
很希望有一天能夠擺脫
可是 從來沒想過會有可能的劈腿

女生會對事物比較敏感
而我最近好像發現了一件事……

考完試了 可是好失望…

今天終于考完精算係的考試
可惜我沒考過
自從高中過後
從未這樣拼命的讀
難過的是 這次怎麽考也都沒過
好灰心哦~ T.T
不過聽到一百個考生裏 只有六個考上
看來精算係真的不容易念
希望三月份的重考 可以考上
君瑋，要加油！！:D

今天終于收到了年底回家的機票
好興奮哦~
還有收到了一張聖誕卡片
也很高興
卡片是立體的噢


周末唯一去得地方只有 Westfield Mall
當天好多優惠
覺得來的時間超對的 :)
我買了一個要送人的 VS 聖誕禮盒、
VS 的甜心唇蜜、
可愛格紋的裙子（有點蓬蓬的感覺 超可愛的）
還有一件一直想找的吊帶牛仔裙

很 sweet 對吧？^^

聖誕禮盒

我最喜歡逛街了
聽到要逛街
整個人就會提神起來
讓我嫉妒的是
好朋友去了英國留學
卻感覺是去旅遊似的
她上次買了好幾個 Burberry 的包包
最近她又買了 LV 的包包
好想象她一樣到處去玩
可是不行吔

説到 LV 我又想買 LV 了 :D
這次想買比較淑女一點的
等我考完這學期的考試
一定要去購物！！ :)


好久沒自拍了
這次來個素顏的我

沒化眼妝的我感覺是單眼皮的
而且眼睛好小一個
剛好咪咪眼 ^^
我哪裏都不畫
就只愛畫眼妝
眼妝畫的好 心情自然好
呵呵呵~

The Reasons Why My Blog is Getting Pointless...

I kinda notice how pointless my blog is now. I haven't been blogging anything. Yea, anything!!

Right now, I'm confused what I am supposed to blog because I have been really busy...

Yea well, you guys should know how busy the university life is. All you can do is study, study, study, study! If you are lucky, you'll get something better ----- assignment!! If you are even luckier, you probably get homework every day!!!

Sigh... Whether or not the time you have at the university isn't as long as when we were at high school, primary school, etc etc... Still, the work I have compiled up to date is killing me!!!!! *gasping for air*

I used to say that I slept at 10pm and wake up at 8.15am. However, right now I have to sleep at 2am and wake up at 8.15am then carry my heavy legs to class.

Perhaps, everything will be better after I have taken my first actuarial science paper... Frankly, I doubt that I'll pass since many people fail... :(

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Tada!! I bought Maybelline's new mascara...

I really fancy Maybelline's mascaras. They are cheap and good to use. :) However, I can't tell which is better cuz mostly are the same when apply on my lashes. :P

Girls of Desire at Q

Okay, a quick post!!

Went to Q again with just Max and I on Saturday night. Nothing much that night. Kinda boring. Just hanging out. :D

It was the Girls of Desire night. A lot of old people there. Not fun at all. :(

These girls are actually men, I supposed that and most of them were really fat. Lol. :P

今天的坏脾氣。

今天的心情超亂。
做什麽事情都想發脾氣。
也不知道自己要干嘛。

London or Taipei??

I have been debating if I was to go somewhere during Spring break. It's either to London, a city where I have never been before or to Taipei where I miss so much.

Both flight tickets cost almost the same but the living expenses are different for sure. My intention to both places is definitely to shop!! If I was to be in London, I would probably pick up on branded stuff and I will never miss Topshop in the UK!!! Besides, Alicia was saying Burberry is cheap!! But, I'm more into LV seriously. Planning to get a second LV bag sometime soon, I already have one in mind. :P

If I was to go to Taipei, things and food will be a lot a lot cheaper and I can pick on a lot more of "Kawaii" stuff. :) Also, I'll feel myself at home too. I really enjoy the street shopping and night markets. Besides, I can easily know what I want there. >_<

London or Taipei?

London or Taipei?

London or Taipei?

I can't make up my mind!!!

By the way, I'll be back in Malaysia end of next month. I'm super excited to go home. :) But it's only for 3 weeks. I hope I'll have a good holiday this time. :) :) :)

The Day Before Halloween '08

Halloween has past for weeks... But right now, I'm only wanting to blog about the day before Halloween, it was a weird night though.

Max and I supposedly going out with a bunch of people, but we'd no idea why nobody turn up. Somehow, both of us decided to go bar hopping.

We went to Iguana, Downtown, Dillinger, Loft, ... nothing turn up fun. Oh well, the cover charges were nothing. You won't believe it's only FOC to $1 that night. Ever beers were freaking cheap like $1.50.

When I say nothing it does really mean nothing!! All I know is that night at Downtown, there were a bunch of crazy ladies jumping and dancing around on the dance floor. The situation was pretty weird and besides those girls, no one actually joined them on the dance floor.

Finally we decided to head back to Q. Once again we were there. It seemed a lot more happening and we actually felt more comfortable there even there's only two of us.

I know it's pretty awkward when it came to such night. What to say? I still like the atmosphere in a city.

frog sperm that Max bought.

stripping competition at Q

try to see what you can see

LoL. speechless...

(a pic that Max's been begging me not to post!! oops!!)
if you notice that Max actually has eyeliner and foundation on!!
Max remind me so much of my little brother. LOL. but of course my brother is straight. :) :) :)

Drunkass...

This week I'm alcohol free because last week I drank too much, gonna cut down a little.

One day Ryan and I was talking about drinking on Facebook chat that was related to his status.


"Why do you wanna cut down on drinking?"

"I need to. I have been drinking at least twice a week."

"I don't even drink once sometimes!! and I can control myself pretty well."

"You sure? Hahaha."

"Yea. Why not?"


After the conversation, I finally understood why Ryan didn't sound like he believes that I can control myself from drinking. It was because there was a misunderstanding happened last semester between us last semester.

It was at a party and that day I was upset. You know alcohol amplifies one's mood. So I just kept drinking till I was dead drunk that night. Ryan had always been nice to me and I kinda took advantage that night with my unconscious mind.

Soon, my boyfriend found out about me being so drunk that night and it led us to a big emotional fight. Why do I say emotional? Because we were about to break up.

I have been thinking did I make the right choice from that almost-break-up incident?

雖然有一點後悔。總覺得自己好像做錯了決定。

帶我走 -- 楊丞琳

帶我走 ( 不良笑花片尾曲 )-- 演唱：楊丞琳
作詞：蘇打綠　作曲：蘇打綠

每次我總 一個人走
交叉路口 自己生活


這次你卻說帶我走 某個角落 就你和我
像土壤抓緊花的迷惑 像天空纏綿雨的洶湧


在你的身後 計算的步伐每個背影每個場景 都有發過的夢


帶我走 到遙遠的以後
帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
我不怕 帶我走


每次我總獨自遠走
保持沉默 不皺眉頭
這次你卻說一起走
如此溫柔 從此以後


像土壤抓緊花的迷惑 像天空纏綿雨的洶湧
在你的身後 計算的步伐每個背影每個場景
都有發過的夢


帶我走 到遙遠的以後
帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
我不怕 帶我走


白茫留過漆黑盡頭
潮汐襲來浪花顫動
停在海岸結成了沫 哦～


成爲朝向草原其中
又在傳來一滴彩虹
刻在心中拍打著脈搏


帶我走 到遙遠的以後
帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
我不怕 帶我走


帶我走 就算我的愛 你的自由 都將成為泡沫
帶我走

看完了不良笑花後﹐
突然想聽這首楊丞琳的帶我走﹐
所以下載了。
雖然我聽歌的習慣是不聽歌詞的﹐
歌詞對我來說不重要。
重要的是只要一首歌曲能打動我﹐
我就會想要一直聽﹑ 重複地聽﹐
也不會累。

Q Bar (23rd October 2008)

I know it is late to post these pictures up, but I'm just busy with exams and work. Don't really have time to blog properly.

Ever since I get to know Tanisha who is my" Sister Taylor"'s girlfriend, I got to know a bunch of Asians lately. I am happy for sure to get to know some people who are my kind. Mom often say that my friends can unite to be the United Nation cuz I have friends from all over the world, like from Asia, Europe, Africa, South America, North America except for Australia and Atlantic. :D

For the first time that I actually hang out at the downtown bars and my favourite dance bar is the Q Bar.

Well, Q Bar is actually the gay bar but I have to admit that it is the best bar at Lincoln downtown. It was my gay friend, Max who brought me there. Honestly, Max is a great friend. Yume, Nisha and I often wish that he is a straight guy. I had even tried to turn him over.

One thing I like about the bars here is the cover charges are really cheap, in a range of $1 to $5, most commonly is $3.

Almas Polat, a muslim from China and Yume Akiyama from Japan

Xu Wen Jia & Mai Jie Ling both from China and Max Wong from Hong Kong.

Yume, me and Wen Jia

Yume, me and Max

Rong Yu from China as well, Almas and Yume.

Yume and I on the dance floor.

Me, Almas, and Yume

Max and Jie Ling.

Almas and Jenna

Yume and Max

A couple of gays making out in the middle of the dance floor.

Jie Ling and Yume

Wen Jia and Jie Ling

Yume and Almas

Yume, Almas and Me

Yume, Almas and Wen Jia

Yume and Max

Almas and Rong Yu

some random guy...

Almas and I was both sweaty!

If you ever notice that Yume was almost in every pictures, seemed like she went anyway the camera went. Lol.

I notice that most gays at the Q are very decent looking. Sadly that they are gays... Also, Max is super shy. He didn't even want to speak to any guys around. Hahahaha...

I had a great night, I shall say...

……

縂覺得，兩個人在一起不是因爲愛。
雖然愛的力量很強大，可是一定要來自雙方。
一次又一次的不滿意，爲何又要在一起呢？
我也不知道……

我自己。

年底考完試，我真的想回家。
所以上個禮拜就和爸爸說我要回家。
不知道爸爸有沒有幫我訂到機票……
你知道的嘛，年底聖誕節，超多人出國去的。>_<

除了想回家以外，我更想跟媽媽回臺灣。
我想找阿媽、阿公、舅媽、舅舅、表姐和表哥。
可是，小舅媽、小舅舅和表弟已經移民去GOLD COAST 了。:(
每一年的年底，我都會回臺灣玩、逛街。
可惜，今年去不了，因爲要念書。T_T

剛來美國的時候，超想念臺灣的夜市和小吃。
死元勝又每一天誘惑我吃的。
還在我的面前喝什麽珍珠奶茶、吃什麽蛋餅的。
好討厭哦~ -_-"
（死胖胖，有一天你真的會變大胖！^o^ ）

最近真的超喜歡打中文。
因爲我發現我的中文退步了。
不多說、多寫， 真的不行。
加上，我還打算畢業以後可以在臺灣發展。
哪媽媽就可以常常回來臺灣啦！^^

記得小的時候，每次要去臺灣的前一天，我整晚都睡不着。
然後，要回來馬來西亞的時候，都是哭哭啼啼的說不要回家。
還拉著舅媽的手說我不要回家。
很好笑對吧？:D

也不知道爲什麽我會這麽喜歡待在臺灣。
雖然臺灣的政治很煩人，可是我對政治沒興趣。
現在美國要選總統，我也沒興趣。
每天都在討論 OBAMA 或 MCCAIN 什麽的。

最近有回想以前在健身房的時候。
當時不是喜歡跳舞、瑜伽，不然就是 BODYCOMBAT。
現在回想一下，超懷念的。
所以，最近在 LINCOLN，NE 查了一下。
居然在 S. 27th St 的一家健身房最近開始有了 BODYCOMBAT。
這禮拜天有免費參加，我打算去，也想加入會員。
可是$58 一個月，有點不捨得。T_T
算了吧，等回家的時候再回到健身房去。

說真的，一個人住在美國，超多感想的，也比較了解自己多一些。
人嘛，一定要有目標才能往前去。
而且，一定要向前看。
有一句話說得好，“ 歐洲人停留在以前、美國人停留在今天，而東方人永遠往未來走。 ”
就是所謂的 PAST、PRESENT 和 FUTURE。
這句話，我已經在這兩個星期内用了三次了。
因爲覺得很有道理。

我覺得我的生活還蠻有挑戰性的。
每一個挑戰都會讓我做好自己、了解自己。
雖然不是每一天都過的很快樂。
至少，我喜歡現在的自己。
也很期待將來的到來。

我了解一樣東西。
那就是，快樂是自找的。
以前不快樂的我，應該已經消失了。

浪費時間。

其實有時候覺得有男朋友真的很浪費時間。
一來，要抽時間來陪他。
二來，又要抽時間來陪他。
三來，又要抽時間來陪他。
可是，如果我需要他的時間呢？
好像只能自己給自己時間。
浪費在他身上的時間都是我需要溫習功課的時間。
總之，跟朋友出去玩的時間比他得來的珍貴。
他的時間寶貴，我的時間更寶貴。
我看，我真的應該要在狠一點。
真希望有一天找到真正適合自己的人。
這段感情越來越乏味了，可是有時候真的覺得很對不起。

Kid's Night at Nate's House

Every Friday night will be somebody's turn to cook and last Friday was Halley turn. She brought out her mom's recipes which recalled her childhood. That's why we called the Kid's Night. We even decided to bring along some board games like Monopoly, Operation, Uno and etc...

Kid's Night wasn't supposed to have any alcohol beverage, however nobody could resist not to drink. Anyway, the food was great!! I love them and I was totally stuff that night!

Monopoly!!

Nathan

Dustin

Kami

Mike and Nate

Halley, the hot cook of the night!

baked apples, pig in the blankets, mac 'n cheese

Halley and I

Kami and Halley

Britany, Melissa and ...

Nate and I

Fall Break Hiking at Indian Cave State Park

The past Sunday Yume, Max, Steve, Koji, John, Tam, Graham, Tyler, Osama, and I went to hike at Indian Cave State Park. I think it was my first time going hiking.

When we just started hiking, I starting to regret that I came along because I was lacking of stamina and I was breathing hard when we were going up the hill. I think it happened cuz I haven't been working out since I quite going to gym. Everyone was going up quickly except I was the only one going slower and slower. However, when we were going down the hill, I was glad that I didn't gave up.

The weather that day was cheerful, all of us thought it's gonna be cold. I was sweaty and dirty as we were following the deer trail when heading down. Graham and Tyler who are the boy scout thought it would be more adventurous. It somewhat seemed to be dangerous if there wasn't anybody with experience to guide us.

After hiking, some of us played some football but I was just sitting aside chatting with Max. When everybody was hungry, Graham ordered us to collect some dry wood and sticks and leaves to light the fire for barbeque's.

When the sky turn pitch black, we decided to play hide-and-seek. We all knew it's gonna be hard to find so we decided only Graham that hid and we seeked. John gave each of us a tiny torch light.

At the beginning of the game, I was with the crowd. However, soon I found that I lost everyone. I reckoned that everyone had found Graham and hid with him. I was scared and thought I was lost in the dark. Fortunately, I found Koji sitting on the chair waiting to surrender but because I'm a girl and I was scared. He was being nice to accompany me and finally we found them!!

Well, there wasn't any punishment to be the loser but we decided for a second round. Unfortunately, none of us found Tyler because he was hiding up in the tree!!! How could we possibly see him in the dark???

After the game, we went to Tam's apartment and drink. It was a crazy night that we were playing some real funny drinking game.

When it's almost 5 a.m., only we were willingly to go back to the dorm. I was exhausted, but I stil have to drag my feet to work that afternoon. :(

steve, me, max

tam's driving behind koji's.

steve, yume, max, me

the Missouri River. Missouri State is accross the river.

tyler and graham

yume and john trying to catch up with us.

lady bug on max

we started our journey!!

everyone was exhausted!

the scouts told us that we were at the highest point.

we started to follow the deer trail.

mission accomplised!

me and max

barbeque time!

yume and I

smile! :)

一日游就是逛街。 :D

I told you that I was going to Omaha for shopping right? Well, Yume, Nisha and I didn't get to shop a lot. We spent approximately three hours to shop and it was definitely not enough. I usually need at least 6 hours!!!

Once we reached Omaha, we went to Olive's Garden for lunch. Yume and Nisha ordered some potato soup and salad. But I only order Tiramisu because I already had my brunch before they picked me up from the dorm.

Olive's Garden offers mainly pastas, soups, salads and pizzas. Although it may sound very boring, their food is actually awesome!! I think I had the best Tiramisu ever and the soup, salad and some selected pastas are all you can eat.

Yume & I

Tanisha & I

while waiting for the girls in the restroom, I took a picture of myself and I stupidly forgot to turn off the flashlight. -_-"

We spent about an hour in each store so in the end we shopped only Von Maur the department store, Forever 21 and Victoria's Secret. Can't believe that right? xD Should have gone to more stores...

I bought quite a few things from Forever 21 because Forever 21 doesn't exist in Lincoln which is very sad. :( The Forever 21 store we went in Omaha was pretty small, it's nothing compare to the one in One Utama, Sunway Pyramid and Pavilion. I really miss shopping back home. Perhaps, I should go to the city some day. :D Unfortunately, it will take me forever to save the money for a trip. :(((

this denim tunic is really cute and it's only $4.99.

the top and the skirt both from Forever 21 as well and I heart the skirt!! :D

another high waisted short pants.

I guess no more shopping for me till Thanksgiving Break because I gotta study for my P Exam coming in one month time!!! :S

Fall Break!!

It's Fall Break here!! Though it only lasts for few days, not a long holiday. Still I'm grateful that it's holiday!!! :D

I'm waiting for my friends pick me up then we will be heading to Indian Cave. I'm excited!! >_<

Then on Tuesday, me and my girls will be shopping in Omaha! <3 <3

I hope I'll update my blog and facebook with pictures soon!! Ta!

Happy Day.

I'm happy today because exam has finally ended and assignments are all due and I'm gonna have a long weekend soon!!

There are a few things on my mind now.

1. Things to do during Fall break.
   - My friend ask to go camping this Sunday. I think I will probably go because believe it or not? I've never been to camp before!!
   
   
2. Costume for Halloween!!
   - I'm wondering if I should get a costume? I know if I bought one, for sure I'm only wearing it once! Perhaps, I should pick some dress from my closet and put on some Halloween accessories?
   
   
3. More shopping!
   - Yes!! Can't live without shopping! LOL.
   

And... I dyed my hair again!!

It is black this time. I still prefer my black hair and this is gonna be my last time of dying my hair not until my hair turns grey to white!! Also, I cut my bang, I still keep the same bang this whole year and I want to change my hair style but I'm not gonna cut my hair here in the States. Unless there's an Asian salon but not by Vietnamese.

Beauty salons here on average are opened by Vietnamese. Most of the salons, especially the nail salon I've been to, I think the service they give sucks. They don't cut your nail cuticle, remove dead skin, and they don't even bother to ask you what kinda nail shape you want. Most importantly, they don't even clean your nails! I still prefer the service back in Malaysia and it is a lot better with the same price.

好像感冒了。

昨天還沒睡前喉嚨有點痛
今天起床喉嚨更痛
感冒的原因可能會是壓力嗎？

最近特別有壓力
好想馬上放假喔 T_T

Nisha's 21st Birthday

Last Sunday was Nisha's 21st birthday dinner. Unfortunately I was so tired and being way too quiet that night.

Um... I don't think there is anything much to say. Just some pictures. :)

nisha & i

the guys

Salsa Dance @ Sal Tango

This pictures have been posted on Facebook for quite some time. But now only I upload everything here because I don't update my blog as frequent as I used to.

Sal Tango is a dance bar where Thursday night is Salsa Night. It has pretty cheap cover charge for people who are above 21. I was charged for only $1.

I was totally sober that night because alcohol hasn't been my favourite for quite some time. I remember the last time I've been to a Salsa bar or a club was back in Malaysia.

Compare this year to last year, I'm completely inactive now. First, I don't stay as late as I used to be. Second, I don't drink that much anymore. Third, the bars in the small town ain't as fun. Forth, I don't have much party friends. There are many reason which I can't explain all at once.

Well, I somewhat miss the life that I used to have.

Bianca & I

Nisha & I

A bunch of Brazillians & Us *but without me cuz I'm the photographer*

Yume & I

Bianca & Yume

My beloved sister Taylor.
*Isn't she cute?*

Sister Taylor was kinda drunk that night, he came up to my room and surprisingly that he allowed me and Nisha to braid his hair!! :D

新的決定。

最近心情和生活有點亂，非常的想重新來過，希望可以在次做個新的選擇。

可能現在真的已經慢慢的長大，很多思想和想法也慢慢變得不一樣了。
對自己的理想和觀念也變了。
就連對愛情和家人的意義也不同了。

記得以前非常痛恨家人給我的管教，可是現在非常想念家的感覺。
可能是因爲住在國外的關係吧，所以才會想回家。

愛情是什麽呢？
以前都一直都為這個問題而感到困擾。
現在應該有個答案了。

我一直以來喜歡單純的愛情。
現在也是一樣。
可惜，這個複雜的時代，應該不可能會再有單純的思想。
雖然自己有時候也不單純，可是如果世界上還有單純的存在，我真的會很高興。

每個女孩的希望就是找到心目中的白馬王子。
我找到了嗎？
二十一嵗的我還有很漫長的路。
雖然有了男友，但我還是想到媽媽的話，而我也有自己對愛情的理想。

媽媽的話，應該永遠是對的。
東方人的家教和道理是跟西方人不一樣。
不管我的思想有多開放，我還是覺得媽媽的話是對的。

現在有了新的想法，我決定保持原則、保持我的夢想。
我打算畢業之後，不待在美國了，到自己最喜歡的地方去，尋找自己最想要的。
那裏才會有我的信心和歡樂。

爲什麽今天我會說這些話呢？
因爲在大學的第二個學期，讓我發現了不少。

Party @ Nate's

Friday night at Nate's house again and I guess there'll be another one again next Friday. Cuz we are taking turn to cook our best dishes!!

That Friday Nate made soma Jamaican Curry Chicken and Rice. It was yummy! This coming Friday gonna be my turn.

You must be thinking since when Jenna know how to cook?

Lol. I know!! Ever since this summer I've been cooking. Dustin likes my dishes a lot but I think he probably hasn't tried the good chinese food yet. :P

Well, I'll be cooking green pepper with beef and chinese green mustard. I hope I'll do my best!!

The week after me will be Nisha and who's next will be decided later. :)

halley and I

halley, me, nisha

me, nisha, hally, nate

the girls again.

taylor's hair is so long that I wanted to tie his hair up!!

taylor and I

me, dustin

dustin

eating eating eating

taylor

playing beer pong

lovey dovey

xoxo

:)

dustin, me, halley, nate

group pic but taylor's face is gone!!

you!!!

another lovey dovey

UFC Pay Per View @ Buffalo Wild Wings

Wanted to blog about this for a long time but the Internet never allowed me to upload any pictures.

It was a UFC night again. Dustin, Taylor, Nisha, Jeff and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for few boozes that night.

I wasn't really enjoying it as fighting has never been part of me. I'm just enjoying chit-chatting with buddies.

That night, few tabs were opened and our orders got into different tabs. When towards the end of the fight on pay per view, we ask the waitress to close our tabs.

I was pissed when I got my tab cuz that damn bitch had put Jeff's tab on my tab, ended up I had to pay for 2 Jager-bombs and a Miller Light that Jeff supposed to pay for!!

Well, anyway, I was kinda tipsy to argue with her instead I complained to the manager when I got home. He gave me free apertizer but I really don't think I wanna go there again.

me!!

dustin, me

me, nisha

taylor, dustin

me, sister taylor, nisha

Welcoming the Fall

I'm going to shop!!! Fall is here already and weather getting colder, I need some clothes for Fall!!!!!! :P

Pong Game @ The Alley

On Wednesday night I went to The Alley with Big Nate and Sister Taylor, boyfriend came along too.

That night The Alley had a Beer Pong competition and the winning team could get $200. Unfortunately, Nate and Taylor didn't get through it. :(

The Alley is more of a college bar where you get most college kids there.

My sister Taylor!

Some guys from Germany.

Big Nate and I.

the Pong game!!

Megan, Christian, Nathan and Taylor

boyfriend and I.
xoxo

the DJ of the night and sister!

Us!

Sorry not much picture was taken because that night was a Wednesday night, not a lot of people. :)

Movies!

The day before Fall semester started, Halley and I had a girl night out. We decided to watch The House Bunny. I think it's an awesome movie cuz it's a girlie movie about a Playboy bunny's life at an infamous sorority house. I was being impressed by the way how she changed the "ugly and unattractive" sorority girls into hot and the most famous girls in the school.

This movie actually trying to tell us that never judge a person from his/her looks. She may not be attractive or have any potential but who knows that she can be the best and not you!!

can you believe that they used to be so unattractive?

Few days ago, the boyfriend rented an old movie, Forrest Gump which was made in 1994. It was an awesome and touching movie. I will strongly recommend this movie to anyone of you. Just watch it and you'll know what I mean and for those who had watched this before you'll know what I'm saying.

Forrest Gump was somebody that was called to be "stupid" but he did more achievements that any "smart" people. He was stupid, at least he always know what he wanted to do.

Watch it!!!

21st Birthday!!

I know my birthday has passed for a long long time but I was just busy.

flowers that the boyfriend gave me. my birthday present was given two months ago which is the diamond "key into my heart" necklace. :)

Every time I saw plenty of pictures of people turning 21 and I know that mine wasn't gonna be the same like them. People usually have party on their birthday because 21 is the age when one can legally go out to party!

On my birthday, it was one of the Thursday in Summer. Lincoln was a dead town during Summer because it was Summer break!! My boyfriend brought me out to the bar for the first time. Unfortunately the bars do not offer free drinks anymore due to improper behavior and damage that caused by most people.

We decided to try out a few bars but the plan didn't work out because of Kamakazes!! Cliff's is a bar where most people go for Kamakazes, it has 48 different flavors of Kamakazes. One glass of Kamakazes can last you for an hour on average and it is only $5.

my raspberry kamakaze!! the alcohol was mixed up to 90% and only 10% is the flavoring.

Cliff's Kamakazes!!

On Friday we went down to Beatrice cuz Saturday was the dinner for the boyfriend's sister's birthday at a Mexican restaurant.

hanging out at Cody's place on Friday night.
the boyfriend and his buddies playing around with fire.

Dustin's beer and my long island ice tea.

Dustin's dinner!!! it's gigantic!!

and my portion of food!

Dustin's uncle and half sister.

Dustin's sis, Courtney and Jeryn, Courtney's boyfriend.

the left over!! i couldn't even finish my food.

dummy!

On Sunday, Dustin drove me to the Omaha's Henry Doorly Zoo. The zoo was big but I won't say it's the best zoo.

So that's how I celebrated my birthday! I know it's dulled but I don't really care. :)

Delays!!

I'm sorry for not blogging for a long time since I have my 21st birthday. Well, I'm just being busy cuz the Fall semester has finally started.

I promise I'll blog soon!!

xoxo

Still Celebrating My Big Day!!

I'm still celebrating my big 21st birthday!!! So not gonna post much but at the mean time, don't forget to support another blog of mine k? *click here!!*

Happy 21st Birthday to Myself!!

Finally reaching the legal age. Should I be happy or should I not?

Perhaps, happy to be 21 but unhappy to be getting much older. :(